“I have wasted all my life and I am not scared to die in the sea…”
Nur is a 19 year old single male Somali who was born in Mogadishu. At the age of one he fled with his mother and six brothers to Hargesia and has been internally displaced since then. In a few sentences he narrates, from Hargeisa, his 18 years growing up in a camp for the internally displaced ….
“I have been and IDP (internally displaced person) since 1994. It has been my home for my whole life…I do not remember where I was born. My mother tells me that we left because of the fighting in Mogadishu. My life is that one of just being an IDP and I think that I will die an IDP.”
“I have never been to school. We can’t afford it and anyway if there is no hope for a life then why make your brain work to know all those things. You ask what I do all day…look at this place. I just walk around and around. I used to play when I was younger then I started to think I will go home… things will be good if I go home. I thought that some of these UN people will help me and I wanted to study. But I do not think now….I just walk.”
He wants to leave
“Then I think I cannot keep walking in circles like a mad person. I will have to cross the sea, go ‘thriib’(illegal and dangerous journey). I have heard that people die in the sea but it is the last hope that I have. I have wasted all my life and I am not scared to die in the sea…I am scared to keep walking and getting to no place…Now Allah will decide…”